Hi Liz. Do not feel that you complain. One of the reasons this site can be helpful is that we can be honest about how we are feeling. Gambling takes us to dark places. It cuts off options and freedom. The very thing we hope to gain by gambling sometimes. Have you touched base with your counselor since these latest feelings have set in? What happens when a lien gets put against your house? Does it just mean you can’t sell without paying them? Or are there other financial implications? Anyway you could leverage your home’s equity? To combine debt into something manageable?Not wanting to stir up bad feelings, just trying to get a bit of a grasp on your situation. Anxiety and depression are real, especially when we have things that are weighing us down. When i would get overwhelmed by the chaos I had created, others here would tell me to try and break it down into manageable pieces. Make a list of the tasks you need to tackle (like calling on Monday about arrangements) so that you don’t have to leave them on your mind at night. Try and deal with what you can but not beat yourself up about what you can’t. You are human. And one who has carried a lot of weight on her shoulders for all her life. Being a kind tender hearted person is not a failing. And hurting ourselves before we would dare to hurt another is one of the reasons we gamble. But we have to learn that we can’t continue to take the pain forever. We are cutting off our nose to spite our face. The lessons get too hard! Hugsss Liz. Wish we could all pop over for a support group. A cup of hot tea with supportive friends seems to make things a little better. Hold on tight. Don’t lose ground. Please find a way to pamper yourself. Tomorrow is another day. xo
