Yes, it was a good programme and I would recommend it. It is exactly the right sort of support for women for a gambling addiction. I was triggered on the way home with a couple of the ladies on the long train journey with recollections of big wins but I did not remotely feel like gambling. The ruin is still with me nearly six months on and not a lot has moved forward. But I have faith that it will. The real test is when I have income coming in and always will be.
Pete fell out of a tree whilst I was away when he was on a job, and is not 100 percent at the moment but bought me food yesterday. Another macdonalds and a sandwich today. I am still grateful for this. My stomach is holding out but funnily enough only when I eat very small amounts. Three good vege meals a day away and I was unable to digest the food, at all. I was so hungry too but probably ate way too much cos it was so delicious.
I read two good books while away from the collection there on the bookshelf. One was about spirit written by the Christian spiritualist association which delighted me because there is a way forward in Christianity for some of the spiritual things I have learned, they are in London and have healing sessions. I have decided to go as I need to renew my strength in my faith. The inner anger has reduced by 99 per cent so that is one positive move forward. The second was by Ram Dass whose work I read decades ago. It was about ageing and written after he had his stroke. It was interesting stuff and reminded me that god isn’t just the fluffy stuff, he also is the creator, preserver and destroyer, the three in one. This is what I like to do when away, learn some spiritual truths, and I feel I did.
