Hi Laura , I wrote to you four times today and none would post !
So if you get five similar posts I haven’t gone crazy !
I loved what you wrote about the loans you “need” and the loans you “want”
It is such a great reminder of how good things can be in recovery .
I am struggling somewhat at the moment but am so appreciative of your support. It is so easy to kick someone when they are down , so easy to get frustrated because it should be easy – such a simple thing to not gamble . I don’t find it easy – I find it a struggle – I find life is conveyor belt of hope and hopelessness , of optimism and disappointment , of feeling empowered and feeling disempowered.
At times I really hate myself and I cannot tell you how much is helps me to open GT and find kind words and support . Thank you .
It is also really helpful to hear about your journey – I wonder how long it will be before I am credit worthy enough to get a loan – possible never .
Laura keep doing everything you are doing . Keep up those close family ties and mostly be kind to yourself . I am so glad you are back at GT- you are such a source of hope and inspiration for many of us .