Things are good. I am still “on the wagon”, and things are slowly but surely moving in the right direction. I never used to pay attention, or realize is a better word, just how much I lost. I make significantly less than I did when I was gambling, ironically, I have more now than I did then… Sure, there are times where money gets tight…but in the past I used to make it worse. I do get frustrated sometimes, and wish I could get ahead faster, but once again, I think this was a halmark of my warped mind. The reality is I can only make it worse. And I accept that… So even though it gets tight now and again, I work it out the right way…I cut corners where I can, and wait to make it less stressful on myself.
I have been very lucky not to relapse since I truly started trying to do things right. I had been gambling while in therapy last year, lying to myself, my wife, and my counselor… So early November 2017 was my last bets… Over 7 months. Do I miss it, I do, I think I used to get some true pleasure out of playing, and it was part of my life for over 30 years. But times have changed… Thought processes have re aligned. And I do feel like a new man…
I hope all is well with you. Good luck with the surgery recovery!