Hi Kay37,
I know how you feel. I have just quit again, for the last time. Since I did I have had nothing but pain and regert for the hurt and time wasted, not counting the money. MOney can always be earned again with focus and hard work – time can never won back. That’s what I know now so I am trying to focus on the time I had left, and what I can do with it.
Have you seen a doctor about depression? I know that the gambling made me depressed clincially, but I only just got help for it. I am on pills, and they are starting to work. I am still getting the odd urge, but I am better placed to deal with it.
There is a support group in 5 minutes here – please join us if you get this message in time. There are people on there who have been clean for years who will know what you are feeling better than I, and they might be able to help.
I wish you all the best and all my love
Mav