Thank you everyone for your kind words
Read Charles poem yesterday its called its not my fault
Geez been telling myself that for years
Went out with a nice lady last week and basically I think I stuffed it
See I have to be honest and upfront about my problem but I am guilty of blaming my circumstances, When I only have myself to blame
Been telling myself for years that if I found a nice partner I could change my life and stop gambling
The fact is that I am at a point where I dont feel I have anything to offer
So Friday night I had a date Saturday Sunday Monday to the pub and drank and gambled 3 nights straight because I was feeling sorry for myself and a little angry
Not to smart so today I will start again and try and think of all the things that I am grateful for