Hi Johnny, thanks for this great post. It is insightful, positive, honest and supportive of your fellow members. Thanks for connecting and sharing. I got a lot out of it. We are human. And sometimes we fall back into something old and comfortable. I think what I learned from my past relapse (and it wasn’t just a relapse, it was a 2 and a half year return to gambling) is that the feeling of it had changed. I knew I was breaking my promises. I knew I was lowering my standards. It sucked to lose and it didn’t even feel good to win because who was I going to tell and share the winnings with. I was in debt up to my eyeballs and hiding from my friends and family so my sessions were limited. And I still lost. So I was in more debt up to bangs and things just felt futile. Save yourself the trouble of finding out that it’s the same shite different day. You aren’t missing anything and have so much more to show for it. All that glitters is definitely not gold. You made the right decision and held on to the true wealth in your life.
And if we make a mistake and think that things have changed, well it’s good to know there is support here. When we need to come back to our senses.
Keep up the great work Johnny. It’s good to see ya!
Laura