Hi Johnny
My recovery is still very much in it’s infancy but I recognise that those thoughts control me a lot .
I have barriers built upon barriers and still I know without them I would be back to square one .
I do notice however as time passes my mid is starting to focus on other things – and therefore less on gambling so I guess that’s some kind of progress.
Most night I battle with myself about bingo , a few nights a week I battle about the lottery and yet this is so much less than where I was six months ago.
Recovery is strange – for some it’s a once off decision and hey never look back ,- for others it’s a long drawn out battle with hazards around every corner – yet for all it is achceivable and a better life is achievable .
Your post has been particularly helpful in reminding me that iwe can all beat this .