[Anonymous]

Hi John, I understand what you mean about feeling low Fter gambling even a small amount. AS you know I have had two slips in the last five months and in a strange way I feel I needed them. I think I needed to remember the pain afterwards.
I think what you are describing is similar. You are growing in self awareness and self discipline . You are resisting urges and making good decisions.. You are overcoming this addiction John . Well done !