Hi John, I know it hurts right now but Micky is right. You can have your own special celebration with your son. He can have two Christmases!!how cool will that be! Just look after yourselfJohn and make sure you are in a good place to give him a really great time!
Things can seem overwhelming at times. But life Has a way of always getting better !this upset too is temporary and will pass! Try To go easy on the booze..in my experience it can make a bad situation appear a hundred times worse.
You have been working hard on this addiction John. Stick with working on your recovery.. You will be so glad you did!