Keep moving forward, gambling ruins things for us but you know when the days add up again and the money starts to rebuild again and you have enough to get you through that things will get better, its just right now.. I used to save and save then bust.. i would punish myself for gambling and not spend a cent on myself.. one thing i have found now is making recovery fun, filling it with things that are good and having little treats on the way.. only possible by not gambling.. making recovery fun and nice for myself allows me to enjoy life more and i have a better chance of wanting to stay in recovery if its a nice place.. i understand you are financially strapped now from gambling but it will get better, congratulations on resisting the urge yesterday, if you did it yesterday, you can do the same today.. just today dont gamble.. you will get through this period..
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