Hi Jim, welcome to the forum. Thank you for your honesty in sharing your story. Relapse shouldn’t be expected but it does happen. In my honest opinion if you feel like this will be too tempting you’d be better off taking a step back and let your wife give you an “allowance”. I don’t think it will have to be forever. It just may have been too soon for you. I always felt like I had two minds. The gambling one which was primitive and caveman like, grunting and demanding to be satisfied. And the sensible one that knows it can’t keep going like this. That knows there is an end to what your wife will accept and a bottom to your bank account. Use the sensible part of you to outwit the gamble brain. It makes more sense to plan for long term gains and satisfaction. I have gone on to have the things I wanted to win. But more important than things I have nurtured back relationships and I enjoy outings and events again. Keep posting. Keeping connected with others in recovery can really help. Take care, Laura
