Hi Jezi, Much of your post resonates with me. I think sometimes when we are being strong for others we are being self sacrificing. Most of us when we dream of the big win, only think of what we can do for others with it. We rarely think we will get a big car – we are more likely to think we will surprise someone else with a new car.
I think part of recovery is putting ourselves first- this is not selfish- this is necessity as we have learned that our self sacrificing hasn’t worked for us . This may be taking the time to embrace our creative side.
It occurs to me that the things I loved to do as a child are still the things I dream about in my head – the creative things you talk about.
How about if every day we do one thing for ourselves which we wouldn’t normally do? We do it regardless of who has demands on our time or money? Perhaps that’s your time in nature or an hour you carve out to embrace your creative side.
I think this is important because it retrains our brains to value ourselves – which is a huge part of our recovery .when we value ourselves we value our money and what it can do for us .
Jezi, I wish you a beautiful day too.