Welcome to the forum. You are in the grip of an addiction that becomes an obsession and gets worse and worse until we just stop. If you did the 20 questions of GA and asked yourself those questions, you would quite possibly answer yes to many of them. When we lose work time to gambling and spend every penny on it we are really in the grip of it. I know cos that was me. There is, however, hope, even if we think there isnt. We cannot give up without support whether that comes from therapy from a gambling addictions counsellor, posting on the forum or going to GA. Sign on to gamstop if you are in the uk, which bars us from all on line gambling. Find out the triggers and why we gamble, it is different for all of us but for many women it is an escape from loneliness, loss or general unhappiness with life . I went on the gma womens programme whch is great and a huge support. Good luck.. and keep posting, lovely folk on this forum who will give you support.
