Hi Jen
I have been having difficulty accessing the journals but hopefully I have this sorted now.
You seem to have been on quite a journey since I read last.
Its seems the longer this addiction goes on the more it affects us.
I closed my Facebook account a few months ago and after the first few weeks I stopped missing it – I stopped watching everyone else’s seemingly perfect life – one “friend” even posted photos of her new car- like who cares???
(Well I did because it highlighted how perfect her life is towards mine ). Looking back I wonder why I tortured myself with something which made me feel inadequate on a daily basis.
Like you I tend to be a social binge drinker,. It’s similar to gambling for me – I never quite know where it will end. I notice others are able to get up and go home but I want to party all night long. I know I cannot keep wine in the house ( cos I drink it ) and I know that I mostly wish I could control my drinking and mostly regret drinking so much on a night out. Maybe I should, give it up also .
I don’t smoke but I know that it is really difficult to stop so please get medical support.
Jen we can do this .
We somehow need to bottle the gambling aftermath horribleness – I once did a hypnosis cd for weight loss. I had to associate my favourite food with a dusgusting smell. Do you know I gave up chocolate for weeks? OUr brains need to be able to link gambling not with great wins or great times but with the horrendous aftermath.
I think to start a new thread you just click on new topic at the bottom of the main forums page.
Although it might be worth keeping this thread so you can compare the posts on how you felt when you weren’t gambling to those where you had. I have found this useful .
Keep strong my friend – we can do this !