Hi Jaylee, well done on looking for help.
Read the other threads here. You will see a lot of stories simialr to your own. You will also see the success stories – what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?
Well done on excluding yourself from those sites. You can also get a blocker for your PC.
You have found what most of us find – when we lose our money we can’t gamble! Now you can use that knowledge, who could look after it for you so that you can’t access it easily to gamble with? Accountability is a good barrier.
Keep posting.