Hi Jack, sorry to hear you went back for another go. I’m not surprised. It takes a lot to beat this addiction and we usually don’t have everything in place the first time we try.
As blockers and gamstop were of no use to you, you will have to stop your access to money. A gambling addict shouldn’t have access to $2000. Is there anyway to have your cheque deposited to your moms account so you don’t spend it? If you don’t have access to any money you can’t gamble. No money = No gambling.
But in order to stay stopped you should have some sort of support. I know face to face group meetings seem scary. But they shouldn’t be. It should be a place that leaves you feeling inspired to overcome this addiction. What about counseling? I did both. It helped me tremendously.
Please don’t give up! This addiction will drag you down further than you can imagine. Please fight for your sanity and put as much effort into stopping as you possibly can.
You can be happy again.
Laura