Hi jack
Whatever our weakness we can be sure that alcohol will not help our resolve to quit or be moderate . For me alcohol doesn’t really make me want to gamble but I put huge mountains of food away when I drink- the result – I look like that same mountain lol!
It is so difficult to stop gambling Jack but i think we learn a little along the way each time we abstain and even each time we have a slip.
You have identied alcohol as a trigger so you could focus on having incredibly high barriers before you drink- like no cash in your pocket , a pre-paid taxi, or whatever it is you need for your circumstances .
You do have a lot to offer someone – you have you !
Although if you could get this horrible addiction under control just think how’s good life would be.
Have you been to Counseling – I think it might be helpful as it could well be that there are real things to blame for you developing this addiction and counselling might be a better way to explore them than on a date ?
Well done for all the days you managed to stay gamble free – this so a process not a miracle cure and you are really working at it !