Im so sorry you have found yourself in this situation.
nI read your last few posts earlier and wasnt quite sure what to say. Firstly theres no excuse for abuse, pure and simple.
nPeople without the compulsion to gamble find it so difficult to understand how our mind works, its like men ( not really understanding how it feels to give birth) if we could just stop at the drop of a hat there would be no need for this site. Its an addiction, the same as drugs or alcohol.
nI totally understand your partners frustration, its a breech of trust. I dont, however condone aggression. I dare say hes feeling hurt, angry and betrayed, and I get that, I put my husband through the absolute wringer. Over and over.
nIzzi, you need to put up every single barrier you can, all at once. What you have done previously is not working. This addiction is waiting to pounce at any vulnerable moment.
nSometimes the why doesnt matter, I still dont know why I did it, and Ive long given up hope of finding out. I looked for any and every reason to gamble, it didnt matter as long as I was sitting in front of that screen.
nWhat you can do today however, is do all you can to make yourself safe. You actually need to put yourself first here, and do whatever you need to. We can only control ourselves, what others think, feel and say is out of our hands.
nI hope you get some clarity in the next few days and make choices that work for YOU! You deserve a happy life, this addiction is doing its best to stop that happening. None of us asked for it, I would never have made that first bet if I had known.
nTake care of yourself,
nLove K xxxx
