Hi IDI! Sorry I missed you yesterday. I came back and waited but than I had to go. I am so glad you were on unable to gamble. I have been worried because I knew you were getting your loan. IDI, I know there is nothing I can say or do to keep you from gambling once your mind is made up. However I am going to try…… Go back to where you were before you had to apply for loan. You were miserable, you even wanted to apply to go inpatient. Nothing is going to change if you decide to gamble. You will just end up worse off than you were before. I know it’s so dang hard to stop the insanity. I myself would like to go play this weekend… however I do not want to deal with the aftermath. I can’t take another gambling hangover. Even if I was successful and did not dump money, it will just encourage me to try again another time and eventually it will lead to the same old tears…. Think it through my freind… I want you to have that new kitchen set and whatever else it is you want. Satan on the other hand, well he wants you to be miserable. Don’t let him win.. Now is the time to lean on God, Not after the damage is done. Hopefully I am able to take my own advice.
