Believe me you are doing more than ok!
Reading your previous post was almost word for word exactly how I felt at that time. Everything you said is exactly how I felt which is encouraging for me and hopefully for you.
Gambling was the world I went to when I wanted to escape my life, when the stress of various situations was too much and when I struggled to cope. Nothing else mattered when I entered that world, nothing at all. It inevitably ended up in making things worse and the cycle started again.
The fact that you have recognised it and have shared it is fantastic.
I say this because when I had these thoughts I was starting to accept and recognise what was happening. It was so hard because facing up to it and dealing with it never entered my mind and being honest with myself was harder than I could have imagined.
Everyday I did not gamble and accepted who I was got easier and I definitely feel that everyday gamble free and facing the inevitable that I had run from for so long slowly made me a stronger person.
Your doing it and it’s fantastic. The more honest I was with myself the clearer I thought, the more strength I felt,l. My self respect slowly started to come back and the embarrassment and shame started to fade.
Keep going