Starting gamblingor relapsing is not an option for me. It took me too far down and there are plenty of people on the site who hit rock bottom. When I was working i would take so many risks with gambling. I had regular money coming in so I would just think money would be coming in the next week so it didn’t matter. Ignoring bills and detaching from life. Circumstances change . What I am trying to say is that I relapsed 100 times in five years but I have hit the point of no return. It is never again for me as it is so destructive when we let it in. Other folks stories on the site remind me of that all the time and I am grateful for that. There is no such thing as controlled gambling. I read a lady’s post on another site saying that she was a risk taker and I think there is an element of that in it for us. I guess most on this site have stopped and started umpteen times. So there is no shame in that. As long as we are very clear about our direction of travel now, today.
You aren’t gambling so there is no need to be deflated. Not everyone wins this battle and one thing I have learned that there are no guarantees in life. We put one footin front of the other and walk the path of freedom from this beast.
