[JohnNobody]

Hi I think you are doing well and taking a good step coming here. I would not focus on trying to get your money back either through gambling or by hoping the casinos refund your deposits. Because in all likely hood they wont no matter what. Accept the fact the money has gone it does not belong to you. And then take the next step to focus how you can start to stop yourself gambling for good.

Wish you well with this.