Hi – I did manage to get him some money. So at least they will have food for the weekend. Him and his mother going shopping. He is a capable young man. Studying hard to get into UNI – My deal with him was I support him through his studys.
It took the last of my money. Im down to zero but have the weekend to battle through it.
I hear you on blockers … and I cant go into much detail – but they dont work for me. Have tried them all and can disable them within minutes. So i have to do this by quitting myself.
Im looking forward to the National Self exclusion program for online casinos which is supposed to go live in the Spring of 2018. I have put my name forward to help with trials but yet to hear anything.
The monkey is on our backs (or on mine) because of choices I made. Its so pointless and such a waste. And not only the money. Thats just part of the loss.
So I will lock myself down for the weekend. Hopefully make “some” money – am going through the casinos doing SE during the day. About half the way through.
This might sound insane but if i had not lost in the way I had I might not be here. I would just have delayed *yet again the inevitable – that in the end I loose EVERYTHING.
So silver linings in a filthy pit and all that.
Hope your well “I-did-it”
thanks for the reply.
D.
p.s I dont think i can stand to read my old posts yet … not ready for that. Still to raw ….. I forgot what a true gambling hangover feels like! Well I know It again but not ready to face the past yet 🙁