Hi I -did -it. The money was in work. I so stressed thinhig about it. Thanks be to god the money was there. I felt so dirty and ashamed going to work. Normally I have to wear black shoes. I could’nt wear my black shoes to today because they where ripped at the side. I had to wear brown. I badly need a hair cut. I look very run down.I havent slept much etc.On my way into work my mind was racing like a race car.. What if the money wasnt there..What will people think of me….so many thoughts……
Things worked out good in the end. My money was there and my son phoned me. Of course I still feel ashamed but thats good. If I didnt feel ashamed means I wouldnt care. Yes My beautiful son. I will see him tuesday. I cant wait. I will him the truth about the ps4. No more lies right. Thats the start of My Journey. To be honest to my self. My partner has applied for social housing. She doesnt think Ill stop. I dont really care if she believes me but as we have all said i need to stop for me. We have started talking a little bit. what will be will be. xxx