Trouble figuring out this site sorry to interupt your post.
Im so sorry to hear you are struggling.
Can i tell you you need to stop the end is ugly ,uglier then you could of ever imagined.
I now what the end looks like and i can tell you ,you will never feel so alone in your life,i lost my court cases ,see they dont care you needed help or was ill ,you will be viewed as a crimminal and person that the world needs to be protected from.
And i can tell it hurts beyond words.
It is to late for me in the name of God stop hope.
I always knew i was in big trouble even way back when i first sought recovery,but it was to late long before i entered a GA room.
But you know in the back of your mind how you hang on to hope that hey maybe just maybe ,it will all work out.
I have no more hope that my past wont destroy me cause it did.
No amount of gamble free,clean time can fix this .
Hope i have left recovery ,and reality is cruel beyond words .Do the crime pay the time,i have to settle and except who and what i have become.
I know you probably dont or need to hear all that,cause i know you know ,BUT NO YOU DONT. trust me .
Ask for help and when you think you are on top of it all get more HELP ,cause you dont.
From one gambler to another ,from one mother to another from one friend to another from one women to another .
Im sending you the biggest hug .Counting on you,one day i will pop back in and i will look for your posts ,watching yah girl ,DREAM BIG ,take care .
