Hi Hope
I’m sorry you didn’t make the group last night.
I know that every post and group seems to get tougher and tougher and sometimes everything becomes too much to take on but please keep posting.
There were weeks when I felt I couldn’t face Gamanon – I couldn’t bear to be in a room with so much pain but I don’t think an evening passed without a smile at some point and on some evenings a lot of laughter. One evening, in particular, when daylight drew to a close, nobody put the light on and in the dark we talked and laughed until we cried even though the reason we were there together was horrendous – when the lights went on we looked awful!
It is hard to pack a smile into just one hour when there seems to be so much to say that wouldn’t raise a smile on the face of the Cheshire cat but never give up talking and sharing – I promise you in the end you will laugh and smile again and although I don’t believe you will ever look back on this experience with any laughter you will be able to cope with the memory of it. I use my experience for reference only and it doesn’t hurt me anymore although I make sure I never dwell for long in that part of the past
Your son can control the force that is eating away at him but taking control of that force is hard and I believe, that for now anyway, he is delaying it as long as he possibly can.
I hope you are looking after yourself, seeing friends, eating and sleeping well and enjoying as much as you can that doesn’t relate to gambling.
Velvet
