Hi Geordie, thanks for your post. The problem is it was 1 day late I did not contact that. Therefore, because I had some late payments from previous years, they put a 10% surcharge on the payment – and we had just been paid a lot of money and we paid 27K in VAT. That’s the fine. I have appealed against, explaining about my mental state of health (depression etc). Probably won’t make a difference and to be honest I have to man up. It makes everything even more precarious at the company.
I can’t blame that all on the gambling though. I must take responsibility.
But I am feeling more hopeful for today. The sun is out, the meds seem to be working again and if I don’t gamble, which I don’t want to, then the day will be a good one.
The truth is, whatever happens happens. The past is the past, I must learn from it and move on if I want to enjoy the rest of my life. Many business go down, for a variety of reasons. Maybe I’ll start another one one day, but for now, I want to finsih this project as best I can and consider my future, which I have never done. I think gambling roots you in the present and you have no thoughts of future apart from gambling – having a gambling ames it impossib;e to think of the future. Certainly for me, because all I would do is think and plan my next session.
Lots of love and thanks for reading.