Thank you for your thoughts and wisdom..you have no idea how this is helping me with my demons and GA. I find myself on this site a lot eager to see the shared stories and recovery struggles we go through. I’ve read it in someone’s else’s thread that owning GA and admitting You have GA is a step in the right direction. I see myself as having an unwelcome visitor called GA but I’m not so sure about owning it. If you own something doesn’t it become part of you? Will thee be a time in the future where I don’t wake up and think about gambling? I find myself having internal thoughts when I pass a bank or gambling parlour. Do I feel like doing this today? My answers thank goodness over the last month have been, NO, why would I do this to myself again?? Then, remember the misery and hardship it has brought to me. It is clear to me what my trigger was back in March. Should I share that with my partner when I telll him tomorrow about what I’ve been doing? (That I found out he had been in contact with another ex girlfriend) this was definitly my trigger but then this would sound like I’m blaming him, and I’m not. It was my trigger and my actions…..my own stupid insecurities creeping in.
