Hi EJ,
Thank you for sharing your story. Like you I only joined this forum yesterday as everything came to a head for me. You have completed the first step by admitting your problem.
Maybe it would benefit you seeing your GP? I did and to be honest it was nice being able to get some of the stuff I had been hiding off my chest.
I have also self excluded from all of my online sites (slots are my poison).
You are not alone and even in the last 24 hours I have found this site so helpful and the advice I have received is fantastic!
I have to agree with Laura that reading other peoples stories can also be helpful. There are so many people on here like us who are just looking for a way to control this addiction instead of it controlling us.
Hope you are well.