Hi Deva
Please keep talking Deva and hopefully you will feel less alone and desperate.
I would never say to you to open the door and leave or close the door and stay; it is important that you make decisions for yourself as part of your recovery. Those who love someone with an addiction often lose control of their lives trying to make things better and often end up being controlled by that same addiction. However you do not have an addiction and you can retake control of your life.
All the painful emotions of bitterness, deep disappointment, betrayal, rage are understandable but they do hold you back. Sometimes we have to vent those emotions before we can be soothed and find our calm inner voice again. I know that talking about our anger with someone who understands can help us clear our thoughts and confusion – so please start your own thread and join our groups. Together, hopefully, you will be supported at this difficult time.
Velvet
