Hi Critias and welcome to the forum.
I understand how painful a relapse can be. After 5 and a half years of gamble free time I started gambling again. I came to the conclusion that not maintaining some form of connection with my recovery resulted in my relapse. I was going through a rough period of time and because I was no longer going to GA, addictions counseling or using this site i didn’t deal with it in a productive way. It took me a while to come back to recovery. But I am back here connecting and am thankful to have over a year back in. Charles is right, reaching out to GA or perhaps some counseling may help. Posting here about how things are going can help maintain a recovery connection. I hope you slip back into your recovery ways. It is not quite so foreign the second time round.
take care,
Laura