Hi Claire
I am hoping for an update as I have been on holiday for a few weeks.
Have you found a psychologist who specializes in addiction?
I have just re-read all your posts and your replies to Sandy and you seem to have become remarkably knowledgeable about how the addiction to gamble confuses loved ones into believing what they want to believe and into denying reality. Of course knowing that we are fooling ourselves and doing something about it is so very, very difficult.
You know you have something to worry about regardless of your husband’s words that you do not but you want to give your marriage another try which I completely understand. You are now armed with a lot more knowledge and I am hoping that this will be the difference between what has gone before and what is to come.
My suggestion is that you keep posting, I am back now and cannot see myself being absent for a very long time. Sharing helps, I know that from my own experience. Talking to someone else who will not judge but who understand helps. Gradually I think our minds can become less cluttered with thoughts of addiction; in time we can see the right way forward.
You ask what good can come out of a situation like this. My personal belief is that given time and knowledge we can turn a bad experience into something good – or I would not be here. I have found that my fight back to my recovery and reality has helped me in every walk of my life since.
I hope you are still reading Claire
Velvet