Hi Charlster
I think it would be strange if you were not dwelling in the past at the moment. You are waiting to go on the GMA project and it is natural to feel frightened about what it entails.
You have support now and it is here for as long as you want it, you are no longer standing alone, you are understood, you are not being judged and the battle ahead is not impossible, if it was I wouldn’t be posting to you.
You know what you are facing but you will not be facing it without the tools to survive because the GMA programme will give you those tools. What you do with them will be up to you but with determination you can change your life and live gamble-free, if it wasn’t so, I wouldn’t be here.
The urges are strong because your addiction knows you are preparing to fight it. It will be even more demanding because it doesn’t want to let go of you, so keep posting and focus your attention elsewhere.
I hope you have picked yourself up a bit as the day wears on. Don’t be afraid of being afraid, just don’t let fear lessen your determination – you are doing the right thing
My favourite quote is ‘success is not the result of spontaneous combustion; you must set yourself on fire first’. You have lit the fire Charlser – well done.
Velvet
