Hi Charlster
I start many posts by saying ‘I can’t tell you what to do’ – but with this post I am breaking my cardinal rule by saying – Do Not Gamble This Money, you will lose as sure as night follows day, you will not have the rent money and you will not have money for food.
Go back and read every post you have written again – you have made giant strides in your recovery – you ‘can’ do this.
As I said in my previous post to you, your urges will probably be stronger as you wait for the GMA programme Because you have the project in front of you, I suspect your addiction is chewing your insides to give it some leeway, after all the the programme will be a magic pill that will sort everything out. Your addiction thrives on situations like this – it doesn’t matter whether you gamble with a penny, £105, or a million pounds, your brain will be into gambling mode and that is a backward step, how much better to go to GMA with a roof still over your head and food in your stomach (even if you are a little hungry)
There is a 4th scenario as I see it. Rather than saying you can’t pay your rent you can offer a substantial amount of it and live on beans and toast for 2 weeks – I know you can do it because I have seen it done before.
Testing time indeed – I will watch your thread and look forward to seeing you come through.
Velvet
