Hi Cat, Thank you for your post on my thread. Very encouraging. I think I will take you up on your suggestion. Right after I post, I am going to print out a calendar for the rest of the year. There are still 7 months left. I really want this, Cat. I know where I went wrong. I can use this to do whatever I can to not let it happen again. I think the calendar will keep me focused, and a way to give myself positive reinforcement. Speaking of…do the same for yourself. Give yourself some kind of reward for each box or something bigger for more than one. Maybe try to think of ways to make the job more appealing. When I clean or straighten, I like to listen to speeches on youtube. Usually something motivational. I like that I am taking time to listen to something worthwhile, humorous, educational, or just entertaining, and I am also getting something accomplished at the same time. Or, as Deb might do, listen to some foot stomping music! You already know how to be kind to others, and you know it more than most! Now, is the time to give it to yourself, Cat. I think this is very important, Cat. Not something you say you should do, but something you begin doing today. Maybe it’s a CG thing. Even when we are not gambling, we can still find things to beat ourselves up about. Try not to do it anymore, Cat. I think it will make a huge difference in the quality of your life.
Not trying to preach. Thinking of myself. Thinking of how I must try not to beat myself up. So difficult when I have messed things up so badly. These days will pass, and before I know it, I will have a calendar full of smiley faces and stickers and happy memories of many, many gamble-free days! You are right, Cat, I can do this.
