Hi and well done on looking for help.
Whilst I can fully relate to the sentiment behind your user name I have to also say that I have never met a stupid compulsive gambler. All the planning to gamble, funding the gambling, covering our tracks, ducking and diving etc takes a lot of doing! Now we just have to apply those “smarts” to recovery.
You have tried to set those limits and control things on your own, i think most of us try that, without success which is why we are here.
So, the good news is – yes there is life after gambling. It is an addiction. Accept that and then there is just one thing in life we can not do, not such a biggy even though it of course seems like it to us.
Read the other stories here, you will see thigns you relate to. You will also see the success stories and the sorts of things that have helped others stop.
You will read how barriers help – get yourself banned from that casino. Limit your access to funds with which you can gamble. Plan your time so both your time and thoughts are filled with other things.
Most importantly of all, don’t try and do it on your own. There is a lot of support avaialble here and elsewhere, it ios important to use it. Again, if we could do it on our own then none of us would be here in the first place. Keep posting.