Hi Alliesmum,
Don’t feel too discouraged, you sound like you have a wonderful husband and family and that is a great foundation for recovery. I would just let your husband know that this is in no way his fault (for leaving the card behind). It’s hard to understand, but any access to money is like leaving a needle around for a drug addict. It is so hard to avoid temptation when it’s there, but I believe in you. Next time a craving hits, try talking to yourself a bit before acting. Really acknowledge you have a craving, and talk to yourself logically about your decision. Understand that if you choose to act on the urge, you will lose money. Be brutally honest and say if you do this, you are throwing this money away, money that could be used for paying off debt, saving for kids, etc. I find that having goals with money are good to have. Right now I have goals to save for a down payment on a house. Anytime I get an urge, I just remind myself that if I do gamble, I will get further and further away from my goals. Stay positive, and stay honest (good job with that).
–Nick