[Monkey15]

When he came back I said to him that if he felt he couldn’t do this with me that I would understand. He replied that he was still here wasn’t he. He said we would sit down and try and sort this out in the next day or so when things have settled a little. I should be feeling relief but this feeling of being so ashamed sits on me heavily today. He encouraged me to do some work renovations with him earlier, and I think being very kind to me. I think I would feel better if he lashed out. What the hell? My counsellor is very pleased with me and offered to talk with him.