Hello everyone! Thank you for your thoughts and support. I’m going on 3 months of not gambling….not one penny! I feel good about that!
However, I am having trouble with anxiety…specifically around my bills and the future. I get very nervous when I am handling bills and dealing with finances—to the point my mortgage was 2 weeks late this month. That has never been an issue before! I just don’t want to be bothered. I have no one I can hand this off too….my wife is scary with money and has been through a bankruptcy prior to our marriage. Is my anxiety ‘normal? Will it disapate?
I am also feeling very guilty….guilty for what I have deprived my family over the years. We are fortunate that we still live a good life, but it could have been better if I did not have this disease. In the long run we will be good, but the short run could be a bit bumpy. And I am stressing over this.
Hope I did not ramble. Thank you for listening and I appreciate all your thoughts.