heya Vera, I’m so sorry to hear about your return trip to hell. Thank god for all the barriers you still had in place and that you didn’t go any further down the rabbit hole. Compulsive gambling is an all or nothing problem. And really I guess the nothing part isn’t the problem it’s when we put our all into gambling that we run into trouble. You had supports that you used before. What about your GA group? They were so important to you. Can you get yourself to a meeting? We have missed your presence and wise words around here. I know how you feel. 5 and a half years I flushed down the toilet. But! I came back and settled back into recovery. And it didn’t take long before it felt like I hadn’t been gone at all. You can do this Vera. Back on that horse that bucked you off. Use your supports, increase the money going to the “safe” fund and not so much for the other. In hindsight you probably realize you had too much money available. But you can change that. What have we always been told and what have we always advised? Build those barriers higher! I know we can scheme but really when we want to stop and stay stopped they do help. Big huggggggggg Vera. I’ve been thinking about you these past few months. You can do this. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Which I gather is the plan or you wouldn’t have been ready to post. Be kind to yourself Vera. xo Laura
