Yes I am very firm in my resolve, although I realize now I have to guard myself all the time, every moment and just keep pushing forward. I just got home, was away for 2 days helping my husband with work. It was long hours and hot, but at least I was busy- no time to gamble… How ironic is it that I met this really sweet woman who is 66 years old, and just lost her husband last year and after we talked for awhile, she said that he had in the last few years of his life developed a gambling problem. She said even though he’s been gone a year, it still took her until now to really be able to forgive him. He wiped out their savings, which wasn’t alot- but was $3000 and alot to a retired couple, and he had been borrowing from everyone she found out, to play slots! I din’t tell her the extent of my problem of course, but I did tell her I have been around gambling and it’s very easy to fall into it, and that I am so sure her husband is so sorry for it! I hope everyone is having a good weekend, and a has a great mothers day tomorrow. I am not sure if it’s mom’s day over there, but I am so happy I still have my mom! I talk to her everyday for hours on the phone when I can, she lives 1400 miles away, but she visits often. She knows everything about me, and she loves me more then anyone on this earth has, or I know ever will!! She is often my therapy and often who I cry to! She is wise and helpful, never condemning, never-not once!! I just love her so much!! Will write more tomorrow:) One week no gambling!! Will keep going ODAAT…
