Not for me, the more stories I read, the more I think what a terrible shame this whole illness is, and I always think of myself as a horrible CG-and my mind reminds me I am an addict!!! I do agree though, what is it that makes us want to read about others who are CG’s and the things they are going through! Are we trying to relate to someone, or in my case sometimes I read other people’s stories to scare myself into realizing just how serious and awful this addiction is!! And it’s funny how emotions can go from good to bad in a day! Right now, just an hour or so after I posted my upbeat post for the morning, work is bothering and stressing me and I felt an urge to gamble… Escape is part of my issue for sure! I could sit for hours, days probably in front of machine after machine and zone out and think of nothing!! Forget all the responsibilities and harshness of the world and I would also forget to eat ect… That is what I think I could do, so that is very scary as the longest I have gambled at one time is like 9 hours at once, and I never eat. Oh I did the free buffet a time or 2, but I was in a hurry to get back to it-and so usually just grab a coke or something and zone back out! I mean even as I’m writing this I feel the urge to zone out.. I used to be able to handle life so well, and in crisis situations, you can be assured I will be the one to be there for everyone, the strong one- in fact everyday people see me as that. Nobody would guess I have this lurking huge problem. Well anyway, maybe for today I will take it one hour at a time, one minute at a time! I sure am struggling here lately to keep the demons at bay!! Great to hear from you Vera! I hope today is a victory for you!!
