Hey Sherrie .
I am fortunate in my situation in that I am still working – the usual – not much to show for it and debt – but still working and will hopefully for another decade ( please God ).
However in the past I went for debt advice and was told my only option was bankruptcy – I have some idea of what it is like to feel that your back is against the wall and you just don’t know where to go – the letters and Phone calls are incessant and the stress of unbearable . Somehow I have come back from the brink .
I coped (just about ) with that awful stress but I didn’t have to deal with my partner being so ill- you have so many huge burdens in your life right now .
It is so hard to stop gambling at the best of times – when you have the worry of such an ill family member I can imagine gambling gives you a little bit of an escape from it . It really must be a terribly painful time for you .
Sherrie , is there anyone you can reach out to — could you speak to a counsellor or friend ? I feel you are carrying too much for one person to cope with .
Day one is ok you know – I have had years of them.
No one is going to judge you here because it’s the one place where not one of us have the right to judge – we all know what day one feels like and it is usually not the nicest feeling !
I know you must be feeling very low right now , so forgive me if I sound preachy – I have got myself in quite a lot of bother on the forums so please trust me when I say my intentions are good even if my words come across clumsily .
Keep strong Sherrie .