Hey Sherrie,
popping in to see how you are doing. Hoping you had a good weekend.
If you keep trying and making changes you will eventually get traction. And once things start to hold the momentum will begin. Please don’t throw in the towel. I feel you are so close to that point. Where your changes will begin to add together. Keep closing off the access. Strangle the heck out of this monster that lives within us. Because yes, you deserve to have a life free of this and free of the chaos it creates. Please take care of you xo