Hey Maverick. I’ve been attempting to get here to post to you for the past few days. I had been re reading my thread and posts from you at times when I most needed a fella’s perspective were there saying it’s ok everyone goes through rough patches in their marriage and life in general.
It must be hard on you right now having to have big shoulders and no one else to be able to rely on. So you did the right thing. You reached out to your recovery family. To say man I need some support right now. From a distance we may only be able to offer prayers and advice but i believe our love and support can get through. Liz has some good advice. Pick something small and simple and manageable as a 15 minute walk to clear your head. You love your family with all your heart and the thought that you nearly lost part of your family and maybe the part that holds the family together has to still freak you out! And with all of that the little devil that sits on your shoulder is likely telling you to forget about it all for a bit and maybe you can win yourself out of any financial problems. You know he lies like the SOB he is. We have never won our way out so far or we wouldn’t be here. If there is anyone you can ask for help, ask. Whether it’s to help with the kids or meals or whatever they can contribute. Is there any charitable support groups that would help in any way? Health costs even if “covered” still have so many out of pocket expenses. I know there are no magic answers. I hope you are able to regather your strength as I know you will. And after this darkness passes do try to stay positive, hopeful, and grateful for second, third, fourth and umpteenth chances. I’m not surprised to hear that work is focused more on current results than your family’s well being. But I know that you can figure out a healthier way to rejuvinate and refocus. I am praying for your continued strenth. You are a kind man. Take care,
Laura
