Well done for joining the site that’s a great thing you have seeked help.
It’s also great to see that you can say you have calmed down a bit and then spiralled a bit, as if you think you can calm and have a bit of self control that’s great. As most of us on here are CG’s, and we need the help to help us get back on track.
I would ask you to think back to that time we’re you say you calmed down, and that compare it to now we’re you have let the gambling control you and try to avoid having these urges or ask your self why it’s became like this.
Then just speak to anyone on here about why you have went back to this point again, because I swear since I’ve came on this I’ve stoped gambling significantly my friend, and I want you to be able to exprience this gamble free feeling.