Hey Laura, I’m a people pleaser but I’ve been working on that for a couple of years. It’s not going over well with me saying no and following through with certain family members. Oh well! I was the scape goat also. But no more! I was very shy and a introvert as a child. I was easily led as a young adult which caused many problems for me. Your right, we aren’t responsible for anyone else’s behavior. My Mom said I lie about everything when we had our blow out. No, I told the truth and it was too much for her. I’m done smoothing things over. If she never talks to me again, I will have to except that. My other stressor, my oldest Daughter has been playing me because she knows how much I hurt when she keeps my Grandson away from me. I can’t change what she s doing but I can stop playing the game! Repeated unanswered phone calls, telling my Grandson bad things about me. Yes, he tells me as he knows what his Mother is doing is wrong. So pathetic! I can back off. My Grandson knows I love him even if we don’t talk for awhile. She also throws my gambling addiction in my face. She is a recovering drug addict and a alcoholic. I’ve never ever said anything negative about her addictions. I’m refusing to having anxiety attacks and insomnia which could affect my health. I have to love myself enough to refuse that kind of mean treatment. Life is too short! I’m working on me! I’m going back to church on Sunday. I need to be around positive people and fellowship. My friend of 29 years is coming for a visit next month. I’m very excited. I’ve been lax on my exercising as I am babysitting 4 days a week but I can start walking again and using my exercise videos. I need to do for me now! No gambling! Makes me happy.
