Hey Kman, welcome to this forum. If you truly desire to stop gambling one of the most helpful things is to not have access to money except for a very small allowance. Do you have anyone left in your life who would deposit your pay in their account and give you a small allowance while you fight this. We often have strong urges or withdrawal when we stop and not having access to money can help fight these urges. You need to find ways to put barriers in place. Please don’t make contact with long lost friends in order to hit them up for money as that will only keep the cycle of gambling and shame going. If you had a really good friend amongst them that you think would help you? With stopping not continuing that would be positive. Reach out for any support you can get through your government health services (if in UK or other country that offer these things). Attend a Gamblers Anonymous meeting. Attend group sessions here on the site. let us know how things are going.
take care,
Laura
