Hey John. There are many things which are universal for all CG’s and then there’s a few things where everyone’s situation is different, specific in its own way.
Telling my wife would not accomplish anything at this point. It’s not like I would be less likely to start gambling if my wife knew how badly I lost last few months. You’re a problem gambler, you know that. Other peoples pleading and begging doesn’t really cure gambling addiction.
The solution (for me at least) is in my brain. I need to trick it into not gambling, just like the addiction has been tricking it into gambling all these decades. No amount of other people’s begging or cursing will do that for me. I have to reprogram my brain, i think that’s the only long term solution for me. Good starting point, I think, is understanding why I gamble, how I’m tricked into it by an illusion that it gives something positive to me. That book by Allen Carr does a pretty good job explaining that.
I don’t need gambling. I need to understand that on all levels. i don’t need it. My wife can’t help there, I need to do it on my own.
Day #32 today.